Today Abbey and I simply held Becky's hand..massaged her feet, talked to her, hummed a song or two. Becky, is of course, heavily sedated, it is required when on ventilator. Abbey was talking to Mommy and says felt a slight tingle from her thumb. Abbey said "I know she heard me"..the sounds of the world stopped when Abbey told me this, I just tucked these words from my daughter deep inside me.
Medically, there is no improvement in her condition. This is indeed a point no one wants to see their loved one reach, but we are here..Again, we will discuss with a few physicians on Friday what action should be taken. honestly feel like I am writing the end scene of an epic film..and somehow I think everyone will be OK after the scene is over. I know, it's almost silly..but Becky loved me for my silly analogies, and she would love this one. My friends, writing this blog has really split my inner 'private box' open..I like to journal my/our feelings, but displaying them for countless others to see, can sometimes take great constitution, but again it is what should absolutely be..Becky likes this. WE wanted to be as transparent as possible.
Abbey and I are tired, this has been and is very long journey, but we are doing OK considering, we really are. We came home after the hospital, watched the latest Narnia movie to take us away..and it did..far away. I want to tell you how I do believe/know God is in all the details despite what we may sometimes think. The rental of the car has turned out to be a welcomed transportation detour. Abbey and I were discussing this morning that it is nice to get into a car that is not the one we have been driving back and forth to the hospital. What an unbelievable week for our regular car to need repair, but again, we embrace the new ride. Yes, our car will be ready tomorrow or the next day, so back to ride reality, but for now, just don't care..the breakdown may have been a 'no, not this @#$@!! moment', and I may be crazy, but thank you God for this little hiccup.
Our hearts are very heavy..we just get through an hour, then another. We will still think and pray of good things to happen, we do, but we are bracing for what may happen..
Dear God, comfort my daughter..please..and please give me the strength to be what she needs when she needs it. and thank you for who she is..she has the courage of her mother, and yes, 'we can do all things through Him who strengthens us'.
Enjoy life..Celebrate life..
All our love,
Bill, Becky and Abbey
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we are believing for miracles, our God will heal now or later in His presence. We will be together again with no more tears or sorrow or pain, whether it be now or in eternity. Bring our Becky back Lord, or take her to your bosom until we join her in our time.
ReplyDeleteFeel so heartbroken but continue to pray through my tears for a miracle here on earth.
ReplyDeleteMy heart aches for the three of you. I am still praying for a miracle. I know the Lord will heal Becky in HIS way and HIS time. Much Love, Barbara
ReplyDeleteO eternal God, you are not such as I can see with my eyes or touch with my hands, yet grant me this day a clear conviction of your reality and power. Let me not go throughout my day believing only in the world of sense and time but give me grace to understand that the world I cannot see or touch is the most real world of all. My life today will be lived in time, but eternal issues will be concerned in it. The needs of my body will be ever present, but it is the needs of my soul that I must care for the most. My business will be with things material, but behind them let me be aware of things spiritual. Let me keep steadily in mind the things that matter are not money or possessions, not houses or lands, not bodily comfort or bodily pleasure; but truth and honor and meekness and helpfulness and a pure love of you lord.
ReplyDeleteFor the power you have given me to lay hold of things unseen; for the strong sense I have that this is not my home; for the restless heart, which nothing finite can satisfy; I give thanks to you Lord. For the invasion of my soul by the Holy Spirit; For all human love and goodness that speak to me of you; and for the fullness of your glory outpoured in your precious son, Jesus Christ. I give thanks to you, O God.
I, a pilgrim of eternity, stand before you Lord, O eternal One. Let me not seek to deaden or destroy the desire for you that disturbs my heart. Let me rather yield myself to its constraint and go where it leads me. Make me wise to see all things today under the form of eternity, and make me brave to face all the changes in my life through the grace of Christ my Savior. Amen.
Love you guys,
Susan and Jim