Carrying on..

Indeed, carrying on...seeing just what endeavors may be sought out..and of course, staying in the moment, coupled with reflecting on the journey..trying to stay simple while also adding complexity. Make sense? Maybe not, but just felt best to exclaim life this way at this time..
I know there will perhaps come a day when the blog may see it's cessation, then again, really can't predict this, maybe at the one year passing of my sweetie? Really can't say. I do feel a sadness as I write this, but also feel like maybe this is the natural metamorphosis..Yet, I still want to continue writing for therapeutic sake..it certainly helps to expel the inner feelings from the deep soul, from the 'heart on the sleeve', to this electronic public viewing bank. Some days hard to say what really lies inside, but some days it is what is needed, say it here and say it as best you can.. and I will continue to do so, until....
I know my sweet Becky would say..just do what ya feel..and that I will. Toward the middle and latter stages of her illness, we talked of perhaps writing a book. It would be nice to expound upon what has been written on this blog and other pages over the last 3 to 4 years..it surely would. It can be done. BUT, if it is not accomplished, then no burden to carry..just glad this blog has served and continues to serve it's purpose. To provide information, a release of emotion, a cleansing was done to the myriad of emotions experienced during this journey, but there is more that could be said..and perhaps this will indeed come to fruition. I pray to the Lord for strength, for clarity, focus and the wherewithal to perhaps tell more. But time and I do believe life circumstances will tell if this is what should be done.
Everyone has a story.. everyone..Thank you to those who have been following this story since it began. Much love to you all...

Bill and Abbey

Valentine's Day..

Well, I think the day went OK, and frankly, don't need Valentine's Day to penetrate my heart anymore than other days. Yes, I did read and tightly squeeze a card Becky gave me last year..I did play a CD she gave me approx. 10 years ago, but along with grasping the reality of Becky not being here on this Valentine's Day..I also recalled wonderful Val days of the past..and I smiled. I smiled. And it was good. And I read the card my daughter gave me and there was even more reason to say 'this is good' and my heart was blanketed in peace and thankfulness for what I did have. I am a blessed man...I was married to a wonderful, unconditionally loving wife, a superb mother to her little girl. I have a poised, caring, funny, wise and beautiful inside/out daughter. But phhhleeease...allow me to say..we are having our 'butting of heads' moments..oh yessssirreee Billy Bob..we are having our edgy days..but hey, that's normal right? Well, yeah it kinda is..Gonna have those days, those moments..but we do at the end of the day, try to make sure most issues are resolved, or at least resolve to resolve them tomorrow! Yes, blessings do abound..I give thanks to the Lord for ALL things...and most of all HIS unconditional love.Amen and Amen Please do celebrate love, life and do laugh and do sing and do dance. Bill and Abbey