As usual..

As usual Becky is the fighter..the courageous one. The pneumonia, slightly improved. The kidneys were approaching a level of perhaps needing dialysis..I was told this a few days ago, well they are somewhat improved. Her liver has plateaued, for it was becoming a very serious issue, but again, it appears to have reached a holding point. Her eyelids actually flickered a bit today when I first walked and said: 'hey baby, I'm here, I love you'. I don't know if this may become more common since the pain medication, from my understanding, has been slightly lessened, but I don't care, I saw my wife move...The words 'glimmer of hope' we given to me.."What does this mean I asked?" "Well, let's just wait and see", says the physician who previously hugged me, as if to say, there is no glimmer. He asked me today, "have you talked to your daughter?", "Well, yeah, not only talked but she has seen Mom and is trying to process this." So here it is, we wait until Monday to see if the ventilator can be removed, this is closely examined and decision is determined by the monitor levels seen. . If removed, then of course, Becky could perhaps breathe on her own, for now, from what I understand, she could not sustain a desired breathing period. Should I be surprised with the courage and comeback of Becky? Of course not. She's unbelievable. The prayers showered by many have penetrated that ICU room. Yes, we know The Lord works miracles...He does.. We need it...
I wilted in the corner chair yesterday and wept like a child, asking my wife to forgive me for giving up perhaps more than she has. I almost couldn't stand over her bed and tell her my will or hope for her to recover had greatly weakened. I know she would understand. I see much more bad than good...After almost 200 off and on days and nights in the hospital, probably 50 to 75 visits at this hospital and other medical locations, and very precarious situations at home, I know this is the absolute worst I have ever seen her. Ever. I love my wife.. and I am willing to do anything, anything it takes get her home, and if she is discharged from that hospital, I will swim the pacific ocean with her in tow in the most beautiful boat I can find, we will find a remote wedding chapel, renew our vows of 20 years..And if she wants to walk down the aisle of Westminster Abbey, I'll do my best to arrange this also...
Thank you all for your prayers. God has heard them, along with mine and he's heard my frustration and words I do not like to repeat...He's bigger than me, so I know He can handle it, understand it. I love Him.
I love you all so much. Becky knows you are pulling for her..
I was driving to the hospital yesterday, the the radio volume while listening to Tom Petty's "Freefallin" was probably heard in Bombay. I felt like I wanted to freefall out into nothing, and I also wanted to write Becky's name in the sky.
So again, we re-evaluate Monday...

Celebrate life,

Bill, Becky and Abbey