Good talk..

Abbey and I; good talk this past Sunday...we have meaningful talks, but this one had many impactful elements...I am thankful for the transparency my daughter and I have.  Though I am sure, she, like myself,  has and needs very private moments when it comes to grief, we also know we need our soul to soul, heart to heart moments, and she and I,  have certainly had many over the past few years.  She also had some very good open heart moments with her sweet Mom.
We are doing OK..school is going well for Abbey.  So thankful for this..so thankful..
I went to a Griefshare session...always has some good points to ponder and some common truths or shared feelings, facts about this process...some right on.  But, it is also true, NO one grieves the same..no one..

Hope all is well with you...Good health and many, many blessings to you...

Celebrate Life,


Bill and Abbey

Steps..

Seems like I take five steps..smile or ponder, think of the past..an array of warm, amusing, even those past 'ouch' moments, then I take five steps..encounter emotion..that's just the way it is right now; present grief with a mix of what was.   Well, been meaning to do a few things to the house..especially some needed lighting..I thought how Becky wanted more lighting..hope I get around to doing it and I hope you are getting around to doing things you want to do..as my mother used to say, 'better make that round to it jar a big one'..some traditions were; you were supposed to put like washer rings in a jar every time you didn't complete a 'round to it'...well I'm trying to keep the jar down to small sized car...smile.

God Bless...Celebrate life..

Bill and Abbey

Thinking...

Some days..just think and think about times past. Good stuff mostly...
The clothes are sometimes hard to look at, but sometimes they bring back a great moment.
Abbey and I cooked salmon...Becky loved salmon and she could get it just right. Abbey did a great job with it though...
The routine of school and work going OK, but I know Abbey does miss Mom asking her how school is going etc...good to have a routine I suppose..but sometimes ya just want to stop right where you are...solve a few world problems..then back to the routine. Actually, I guess we can do that anyway...
Also thinking about, in a few weeks Becky would have been two years removed from the stem cell transplant...two years..that's what we wanted, along with many other good health markers, that's what we were told would be a goal to strive for, when perhaps getting into another 'life lane' would be acknowledged. Becky would be distancing herself from the statistical or commonly known measure of the graft versus host disease return, two years. It is known that usually after two years, the stats are in your favor for GVH not rearing it's head..Well, as has been documented in this blog, GVH was tough in the end, but pneumonia the big bully. Just had to vent that...

Hope and pray all is well with you...Press on. Abbey and I give thanks for the health we have..we thank the Lord God for a wife and mother who was so beautiful, Godly and courageous..

Celebrate life,

Bill and Abbey...

The day..

Had a good Bday..just Abbey and I..and that was best. A great lunch at a southern eatery..then off to shop for Dad, for Dad needed some clothes. A fun time..Becky always liked it when we all went shopping. We continued for her. Abbey gave me quite a few..'yeahs' and 'ahhh, no I don't think so's'. It was an accomplished day...
Next day we went to church, had lunch with great buds the G's..then Abbey and I went to cemetery...hard but Abbey and I talk with immeasurable transparency...

Hope all is well with you..Thank you all, and I mean it, thank you so much for your thoughts directed toward us and for the constant prayer...God is in this..He knows the details..

Much Love..Celebrate Life..

Bill and Abbey

Sept 3rd...

Abbey doing good in school...enjoying most of her classes..likes cheerleading! Her school spirit shows. She can learn a routine rather quickly...a cool thing.

Naturally, we do talk of Mom. We talk of the things she did, the things she said...the food she cooked. The things she would say or do. Yes, my sweet wife, Abbey's Mom is gone..and sometimes it still seems, like really? We do know she is doing just fine..just fine..We have this hope..
OK, a little secret, I talk to Becky. The grief books say this is actually quite normal..I believe it, cause I'm living it...doing it. Not an inordinate amount of time..but enough to soothe me...feels good to just talk small to big stuff in just short staccato-like sentences.. again, they say this is quite acceptable...

Another one of those firsts is here..My birthday. I am not one to broadcast by Bday, but felt OK to say so here at 1am... Becky was so birthday conscious. She loved giving multiple cards, and was always so gift thoughtful...
Abbey and I will celebrate..We will.

Hope you are having some celebratory days.

Be of good cheer...

Bill and Abbey