The time..

Time does indeed wait for no one..and I suppose that is a good thing.  Good that time does pass.  But there are those frozen moments in which time has stood still and oddly this is good to.  We or at least I do, sometimes need to feel past moments as if we/I were there..and then I 'come back to real time' and think of where I am..and I assess the progress made, the days of productivity, along with the days of just sitting still, or taking long walks and just letting the minutes and hours pass on...Yes, a mixed menu of living,  But living I have to do.  Living, embracing a new project, seeking new endeavors, while honoring, recalling the sweet, wonderful life of my loved one, my wife..spending time with family and friends, this and more has to be done, and yes, still making time for the days of letting the hours and minutes pass.  It is good to 'make time' for time to just pass..
In a few weeks, two years will have passed..I think I can honestly assess, the first year there is the numbness..just trying to adjust to this new life-altering chapter..but as I have said and all the books and experts reiterate, there really is no framework for grief..but the the days to become 'lighter' and the 'to do' list changes to reflect your new life.  So onward forward we go.  And I say, God, as I have looked back, thank you for being there in the deepest of valleys, thank you for being there when I felt like I couldn't drive the car another mile, take another elevator, smile another smile..
He is so real...I am grateful.

Have a great day..
Much Love,

Bill