It is so true that with grief there is really no timeline. While the days and months may pass, and the piercing or ever-present heartache may subside, there is the drive in the car moment, the kitchen sink moment, the postcard sunset, the song moment, the reading of cards given to each other moments, which propel to the emotional surface; the tears, the frozen in thought stance, the 'where am I?' voice..and more. All the books say this is just the way it is..and it is. But there is also laughter, there is life exploration, there is growth...
Abbey and I have endured a journey of journeys just like many of you have endured uncertain journeys or paths. As mentioned in previous blog, when the new year dawned there was/is reflection on almost immeasurable days and nights in the hospital, the countless appointments over the past few years..the words said, the words not said,. Today, I did revisit a few texts Becky and I sent to each other during her last hospitalization. They are priceless. I think back on the paperwork then (and now) the driving, the labyrinth-heavy scheduling of life..and yet I will or must think of the warm, meaningful moments in years past. AND Yes, I say aloud, I will seek with open arms, new endeavors.....I will encourage a daughter to stay the course, while also encouraging her to take routes that may be 'out of the course' and uncertain, yet infused with excitement and wonder.
Onward forward.. to us all.. God's peace be with you...
Love and Live on...
Bill and Abbey
I know that you are doing the work of grieving. It is hard but important.
ReplyDeleteI was so surprised when my cousin brought up a pain that she brings up when thinking of her sister who died 3 1/2 years ago. The pain is transference of her grief over our cousin's death.
Conversely, another gal at church seems to be dealing with her grief, too, in a very positive, yet painful way.
You, Go, Bill and Abbey!
Love, June