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Sadness can still overtake..tears come at unexpected and expected moments. Which, any book or 'experienced' grieving person will tell you...'this is just the way it is"..and will be for awhile..

Abbey and I did travel to see niece-nephew-in-law...in Las Vegas area. It was nice to see them and their full- of -life young boys. Just fun to have that kiddie energy around. Side note of no particular meaning but worth mentioning: Forgot what good custard tasted like. Abbey and I had some..and it ranked *****
The other purpose for going to Vegas was taking Abbey to see the production of "Phantom Of The Opera" at the Venetian. Becky and I saw it quite a few years ago here in LA and she really liked it. I thought it might be a 'snapshot in life' moment for Abbey and I to go. And it was. She really enjoyed it. All of the it. The costuming was fab, the music, and the chandelier were all quite a spectacle to her. Yeah, Vegas has the gambling, but the family shows most of the time are no gamble, they produce a profitable night to the entertainment persona...And I have to mentioned this. WE had one empty seat next to us..when most around us were full. Now I gotta say, the irony was not only the empty seat, but that our tickets were initially issued for the wrong night. WE got right up to the entrance and had to return to the ticket agent. Well, they moved us even closer to stage and sure enough, there was that empty seat..while most of the rows in the center section, where we were seated, were quite full. OK, I'll take it as a sign...I really will. I am usually not so on board with this, but that night, I was...I/we embraced it. I said, "Lord, so be it, thank you"....let the show begin..

Reality can even hurt more..the numbness wears off a bit and you begin to emerge from the fragile egg of grief with a heart of confusion and heaviness. Yet, you are also determined to make this day a productive one, to exercise, to communicate with family and friends, to refresh the house (this needs a little more production work)..To motor on..almost feeling like the child storybook ..'the little engine that could'. You chug on.. while reflecting, revisiting, recalling what was..and still must try to cope with this new hill you have to climb, the 'new' life and 'track' you now must travel on...the hill to climb is quite a challenge..this may chug on for awhile. But press on, chug on we will...WE will celebrate life and venture toward new challenges..new travels and more...

Thank you all for your love..We have literally taped the cards on the wall..It is magnificent and very healing to view..very.

Celebrate life..Good health and abundant blessings to you all..

Bill and Abbey