They call them 'firsts', the first bday without your loved one, first Christmas, first anniversary..you get the idea..
As mentioned in previous blog, Weds would have been our 20th wedding anniversary. What a first..on a 20 year..I knew it would be emotional, and of course it was...I'll spare all the details..except, putting 20 red roses in the vase on my sweetie's resting place was emotional, but also had some wonderful recall...thought of good moments...Then drove to where we got married. The place where the tent stood on that hot July day, 20 years ago..stood and just saw her walking down the aisle..This day 2011, I felt like a huge, overpowering, planet sized magnet was beneath my feet..now I get it, I think I was realizing, experiencing the way I felt in 1991 when she walk down the aisle...feet heavy, but almost comically, felt like I wanted to run, well kinda sorta, not really...now I comically chuckle, so glad I didn't, the 'magnet' kept me grounded to that place, eyes on that bride, heart saying this is it..and 19 years, 10 months later, stayed grounded, stayed with eyes and heart on that bride. Thank you God, thank you for arranging this day in 1991. Yep, it was emotional to be there in that place, but it was the place I needed to be on that day...I cranked a few minutes of "Baby, Baby" from the car..I shouted it. A few hundred yards away, the church and staff..perhaps knew something special was being recreated..or they just didn't bother to come check it out, period...
Then off to have dinner at the restaurant we had our reception. Emotional, you bet..but again, had some great recall of good moments. Had some wedding bridesmaids come! Thank you ladies and for the gentlemen who came. For Kim...who gave Becky a wedding shower..Thank you, thank you..much love to you guys..
Strangely, I am thankful to have had such an emotional day..I really am.
Onward forward..
Celebrate Life..
Bill and Abbey..
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