Steps...

As time passes, Abbey and I recall warm family moments..What Mom liked for food, what we all did at certain places ..certain travels..All good stuff.  And of course, some recall has the difficult moments, the uncertain days, the stressed days and more.  I've noticed, sometimes it takes months to pass before certain inner thoughts and observations emerge.  Ya just keep them in the deep canals of your heart and soul and then one day, it feels appropriate or natural to discuss or release these thoughts.  Abbey and I continue to this.  And even with friends, the sharing becomes more vivid after time has passed.   I think it is indeed part of the healing, part of the 'moving on', which as I mentioned earlier, seems to be occuring.  We are going forward..perhaps in small, small increments, but we are looking toward tomorrow and seeing just how we can enhance our 'new' reality..Some days are like any other..you have your trials, your school and work concerns, but there is also the small voice saying, 'let's just take a step ahead'..just a step..and that can be enough.  I have mentioned in previous blogs,  that I think the clothes of a loved one can be one of toughest hurdles to overcome..The clothes that were worn for various occasions that you seemingly recall..The smell of the clothes..ouch.  Tough to sort through these...But, I'll just say, steps are being taken..they are.  The journey continues indeed..
OH and one of those steps is Abbey getting her driving permit!  We are very excited.  First driving lesson comes in a few days..then help!  It's driving with Dad for quite a few months..Dad may have to 'hire' some surrogate drivers.. Note: Seeking volunteers..ha-ha..No, I think Dad will make it through this. It will be a great day for us both when Abbey can drive...I pray for safety..As we all do, when our children drive.

So, the days wait for no one.  Must indeed stay the course..and press ahead..
The word:  "weeping may last for a night, but joy comes in the morning"..
Tough sometimes to see or feel that joy thing, and some days joy is simply unattainable, a brief smile is unattainable, a laugh..forget-about-it, but these things will come..maybe not in a huge 'all is well' way, but small increments of joy will come..and just a small embrace of joy can propel one through the day..or just through the next hour,  it really can.

God Bless..Onward forward..there is much to do..

Love..

Bill and Abbey..