Yes, Becky's birthday...today. Emotions were seen-surfaced. I had some tears along with fond remembrance. Abbey and I cut a sweet muffin in half, had a scoop of vanilla ice cream, lit a candle and sang Happy Bday to Becky. Then some silence..
Just got to go through all these moments..the anniversaries, the birthdays, the holidays. Anxiety or heaviness can be present, but tears do soothe the moment.. I hear my daughter in her room, playing the music..releasing in her own way..and release she should..let it go my sweet one..let it out. She is doing well though..she is adjusting..I cannot be Mommy, but Mommy will be heard..her voice will be whispered..I am doing the best I can I suppose. I hold her hand when needed and I certainly allow ample space when needed ..I listen and I listen, I shop..whew! I am patient and I am impatient..I discipline, I raise my voice and I know when to apologize, I laugh with her and I encourage..and of course, I pray with her.
It was a good birthday remembrance of Becky..her candle burned bright..
Much Love to you all..
Bill
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
You are a good man Bill. Proof that Becky saw it in you, proof that Abbey is such an amazing young lady. You are a good man - don't ever doubt that.
ReplyDeleteWe are amazed at your humble honesty.
ReplyDelete